There are days when you feel like crap. Days when you just wanna sit alone, look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself, “Why?” (or just blankly stare at yourself). That’s what I felt this morning when I got out of bed. I didn’t have a bad dream or anything (not that I recall), it just happened to be that way.
Maybe it’s just my mind f’n with me. Maybe it’s just my head. Maybe it’s what I’ve been seeing. All these emotions are shoved into my mouth, then my heart, my guts, and my brain. Most of the time it’s a negative energy/emotion. These are very tricky and hard to forget, and plus they hurt too. I end up tearing up since I’m so emotional. It’s crazy. Sometimes I realize I don’t want to be alone. I want someone there… not to talk, but just a hug. (and a pat on the back). It’s not going to happen since it’s mornin’ and no one’s home. My other half just went to work.
Why must these emotions kick in right now? Early in the morning… really? *sigh*